From Fog to Faith: My Journey to Peace

17 August 2025

Anxiety and depression have been lifelong struggles for me. No matter what I tried, they loomed like an oppressive fog, weighing me down. Doctors, psychologists, therapists, and even medication offered some temporary relief, but never truly lifted the burden. Medication often numbed the overwhelm, yet the underlying struggle remained. I honestly believed I’d never be free of it... until now.

In this moment, I experience a level of peace and clarity I’ve never known. My mind is quiet, and my heart feels settled. Some days, I can feel myself slipping back into old patterns, but a single action brings me back on track, instantly filling me with calm.

What led me to this profound peace? It could be attributed to a combination of factors: the help from health professionals, prescribed medication, and this new sense of peace. Or perhaps it’s simply the peace itself: my faith. My belief in a higher being. My belief in the Bible. My belief in Jesus Christ.

I can’t help but wish I had developed a relationship with God sooner, but I truly believe everything unfolded exactly as it was meant to. I believe I had to experience suffering to achieve this level of clarity and to reach this depth of belief in a higher power. Without suffering, blessings can’t truly be seen, and for that reason, I find myself grateful for the suffering too.

Isn’t that strange? The very things I once ran from, I now embrace with gratitude. I won’t go into extensive detail here, as I know this topic might lose some readers, but this is the most honest truth I’ve ever shared.

Faith healed me. Faith brought me peace. Faith made me grateful for the struggle. Faith released me from a lifelong battle.

I know there is much scepticism surrounding this topic, with many believing it’s a myth. But how else can you explain the profound change within me? How does it account for the healing that modern medicine couldn’t achieve? How does it explain the peace and calm I now feel?

Honestly, I’ve always longed for a relationship with God. I often envied those with strong faith, though secretly, I sometimes suspected they were faking it. There was always some obstacle, some barrier, preventing me from reaching this goal. My biggest mistake was relying on others to teach me about God. So many obscured interpretations of the Word left me feeling lost, confused, and more convinced that it wasn’t true—that God wasn’t real, and everything about Jesus was made up. Now, I can’t believe I ever doubted. I can’t believe I lived so long with that much uncertainty.

Even as I type this, I feel a sensation that words can’t describe. It’s the same feeling I used to get when writing my songs, when singing them. And it’s strange, because I always said I didn’t know where those songs came from. One minute there would be nothing, and then suddenly an entire song would pop into my head. I’d doubt my own reality, convinced I must have heard it somewhere, but they were mine. Well, kind of mine.

I understand now that these songs were a gift from God. I would wake up with a song in my head, or in the middle of the day I’d randomly start humming a tune and feel a desperate need to put pen to paper, as if it was being whispered to me.

And here’s the truth I never thought I’d be able to say out loud: I’ve become a true believer in God. That realisation has changed everything for me.

One day, I simply decided to buy a Bible and started reading. I didn’t ask for anyone’s advice; I was by myself, trying to decipher the Word. It was as if a different layer of my mind opened up. I have absolutely no desire for wealth or property. Everything I once thought was of great value now seems insignificant. My mind is constantly consumed by thoughts of Christ. Every single day of my life is consumed by the Word. Every interaction I have is done with the Word in mind.

God is real. I am living proof of that.

My music is a gift from God. It first brought me comfort, and now, it needs to go out into the world. Knowing that this gift is extra special makes me even prouder of what I’ve created.

I hope your healing journey leads you to God. I hope you find comfort in my music and that it brings you the peace you have always deserved. I hope you are as fortunate as I am to know the Lord, and that you will no longer be bound by the chains of the flesh. I hope that God softens your heart so that you can find comfort in Him, just as I have.

Until next time - keep the music alive and buzzing.

Carnita Bee